New xanga if you care.. Maybe a coupel until I decide which name I prefer... Comment on this and Ill comment on yours with my new one(s).

Don't know if I'll come back to this name. Its caused me too much shit.

'course, all that shit is my fault... But I don't really give a rat's ass at the moment. I'm an odd mixture of angry, depressed, raunchy, and wanting to beat my face against this desk and at the same time knowing I don't deserve it.

Twisted, right?

Anyway. Yup. New xangas. Because the Daughter of Fenris is too bent on destruction. While a rotting beast and a canine priest are far more decided on the rightious.

Oooh a riddle!

Apparently I've been disowned.

Bye bye Xanga.

It kinda sucked.

Previous plans have been canceled.

Old ones are in place with a slightly new twist.

Sorry, mom. I'm jumping into "the Missouri trap" and y'know what? Its lined with fur and velvet. No barbs that I see. 'least not from the inside. I'll make all your mistakes and I won't regret any of them. Because they won't be mistakes for me.

"Do not judge the girl by the beast she appears to be..."

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Is it sad that I know why my phone is ringing? and that I pull the same shit I do all the time and avoid it? Whats wrong with me?

I've secrets I haven't told anyone.. They are lurking in my brain. I know why they are there... kinda.
But They'll live there, safe away from everyone. Where they won't hurt anyone but me.

I'm feeling like a cold hearted bitch. But at the same time I feel like I'm doing something right. I don't know which feeling to follow, which to believe. Or which voices to listen to.

I'm confused. Loved, but confused. Hurting people, but loved. I'm a twisted little girl.

And you all wonder why I wore a leash. It was to keep you safe from me.

Currently Reading Seduced by Moonlight (Meredith Gentry Novel) By Laurell K. Hamilton see related

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Anyway: Happiness! I get to see Josh saturday. Im supposed to go down to Ava then.... But if I cant' spend the night there its kidna wasted time. So I'm whining to Dad and doing random shit to use in my favor... And telling him I'm going to do so.

Dad: Thanks for doing that.
Alex: I want something from you. Of course I'm going to do stuff.
Dad: -laughs-
Alex: No, seriously.
Dad: -stops laughing, stares a bit, then leaves-

The camp I was supposed to help with got canceled. -shrugs-

I went to zoos. Here are pictures:

For Benton:

That bottom one turned out best, methinks. He's so cute peeking! ^^

For Josh and I:

Currently Listening Mezmerize By System of a Down Cigaro see related

Stole from Joshie-poo whom stole from Twistine whom prolly stole fromsomeone else. ^^

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet and current street) Casanova Walnut 2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your mother's side, your favorite candy.) Patricia Chocolate (that sounds dirty) 3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name followed by izzle", first two or three letters of your last name followed by "dizzle") Aizzle Busdizzle. (Is that first word even possible? o.0;) 4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) Red Wolf 5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (First name, city where you were born) Alexandra Kansas City (Lame. Totally lame.) 6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name- last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name repeated twice) Bustam Kinkin (-blinks-) 7. JEDI NAME: (first name spelled backwards, your mother's maiden name spelled backwards. Ardnaxela Mahctek 8. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, the automobile you drive) The Red ... Tractor? Jeep? ATV? Shoes? What do I put here?!!? I think Im getting sick. It is much gross. -sniffles- Ew. Moommy! If you read this before I call you tonight call me on the house phone! Fankies! ^^ And start emailing zxdarkwolfessxz@aol.com, children. the school email dies on my comp.